ConfusionWritten to Any god that will listen on December 3rd, 2012
If you do chose what happens, i need to know why. You gave me a reason to break every bad habit of mine, a reason to work towards a future i wanted, and to believe that i wouldn’t end up the sad lonely person i always thought i would be. She then just turned away, no real explanation and all the time i was told i did nothing wrong. I want a life with her, more than anything but if that is truely off the table, i just want to know why. I want to know why it would be this way. I was happy there, i know i would always be. Is this really just my past mistakes all catching up with me? If there is actually some greater power, that i am supposed to believe in, why should I after all this? I am a shell of who i once was. I am broken and each day just feels like it isn’t worth living. Please, fix me, or help me fix myself.