Jesus please deliver meWritten to Jesus on April 11th, 2012
Dear sweet Jesus, Please search my heart and know that I love(ed) rich. I loved him wholly and all that I could. He relasped on crack last night after several months clean. I live with him. i only make 900 on ssdi a month. he makes 500 a week. i cant support myself to really live without him. I AM SOOOOO SCARED. feeling trapped and hopeless and helpless Jesus. Jesus, i have been so hard trying to be the most rightious good person i can be. Jesus, please deliver and heal/fix this agony. this torture. Rich doesn’t deserve me anymore. he doesn’t deserve to abuse me anymore. Jesus, i have been petrified to death of this day coming. I feel everything good and happy was stolen from me. crack is death to all things good and Godly. God, please deliver me! God please, I am sooo sooo sorry for being rebellious. And cursing. please, God, I AM BEGGING. Show me the way to be whole again.