Dear God,

I’m coming to you again tonight, or rather this morning Father. I want to thank You for helping me find my way back to you Lord. I’m sorry that I was living my life so horribly before, and I’m changing, little by little, but every day I will try to move closer to You.

Not a bit of the pain from losing Brooklyn has left, and I’m beginning to think it never will. I can live with it, but I know I’ll never be able to commit to anyone as long as I feel this way. I don’t want to be alone Lord, but I don’t want anyone else other than her, that’s selfish, and I’m not asking for her back, I trust your judgement and I will let your hand guide me as you see fit.

My own child and Riley are still sore points, I know I’ll never get over losing them, but I’ve found it easier and easier to keep going. Ever once in awhile something somewhere will remind me of them and I can’t help but be on the verge of breaking down.

Lord, please help me with dealing with this, I’ve been raised to never be hurt, never be sad. I can’t help it anymore, I can’t keep it up much longer Father, I know I’m already starting to break and I think everyone else can see it too. I’ve caught myself actually talking to people about stuff that’s bothering me, slight slips every so often that I notice even if they don’t. Why am I breaking Lord? What’s wrong with me?

I Love you Father. I trust You and You alone, and before I go, please continue to be with Servant, MissLeslie, and Son of God. They deserve your blessing much more than I do. Also everyone on this site Father, regardless of religion, I pray for each and every one of them.

Thank You God.

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