I need my almighty God to hear my prayers, I m so lonely & heartbroken, I don’t have any hope in the future, right now I m just living because suicide is a sin and I dont want to go to hell, I m a beliver, Christian who prays everyday, for the past 2 years I lived a horrible life full of pain, crying, weeping every night, I m so lonely that I dont see the reason I m here on earth, I prayed to God , I fasted I did every possible thing for God to remove my pain& suffering, for him to bring my joy back, and for me to have the peace that I lost. .
Since 2013 the only time I feel better is when I m sleeping, which is too hard to get as I most of the time have to take sleeping tablets, but immediately after waking up my heart is full of pain, I want god to come get me from this filthyfilthy world which is filled with nothing but pain and misery, I asked God to restore my relationship with a wonderful man that I knew for 10 yrs now, but he is jst silent on me , infact he let pain come in my heart.
I m a medical student in my 4th year now but living a miserable life, no motivation,no love,nno peace,no happiness, my friends are all excited about their upcoming careers but for me I m hopeless because my heart is filled with pain, I m not even excited that in 2 years I will be a medical Doctor, I rather die and go rest in peace rather than having to live and witness the cause of my pain which is causing my everyday pain…..
after all the unanswered prayers I gave up my life and the thing that I want right now is to die, or atleast have my life back with no pain and misery….
God promises us that he will be with us, he will never leave us uncomforted, that if we search him with all our hearts we will find him, but where is he?